Month: September 2015

Struggle

Life is a roller coaster ride indeed.

There come a point wherein all you have to do is to reflect and reminisce what have you really done to suffer this and that. You may think that you can have everything that your mind is thinking yet what is happening to you is an exact opposite.

Karma. Indeed what have you done in the past will bear fruit in the future. All things that you taken for granted and have done which were not supposed to were reaping it now.

If you have done good, you are happy today. But if you’ve been irresponsible, abusive and cruel to yourself, now you are struggling and suffering, you may feel unlucky, that world is against you. You might even question God the big WHY.

Why me?

Why is it happening to me?

Why I am into this?

Endless WHYs.

Some may come to a point that would curse and blame God. Who really wouldn’t?

Do we really need to gone through and struggle and suffer before we realize the importance of life.

Some may even feel miserable. That life has no point of living it anymore. That life has no meaning at all. That they even want to end their own life.

Do we really need to suffer a disease to pay for all the sins we have done? Why isn’t it just easy that we have to accept that we have sinned. Pray with all our heart, then, were completelt back to normal as if nothing had happened.

Some may be in denial and think lots of scapegoat and cannot accept what were happening right now. That it is wrong, that its not happening. That it is just a nightmare and tomorrow it will gone.

Do we really need to suffer and struggle and to be humiliated because of our sins? If that so until when? Is there an end?

Be happy and inspired,

tr3se14

 

 

 

Destiny Rose

Destiny Rose is a new afternoon soap opera in GMA TV Network which will show the struggle, humiliation, discrimination as well as inspiration, courage and education of being a homosexual. Its one among shows that’s an eye-opener especially that the LGBT community is gaining unity, attention and strength all over the world.

The show wants us to be aware that being gay is not always instantly relate to flirt, promiscuity or cheap rather gays like other human being have emotions too that needs to be respected, understood and valued before judging us.

There may be parents who wouldn’t accept their child being a gay as it may deemed to ruin the reputation of family. That a third sex in a family mean shame, disappointment and embarrassment. Its simply a big no-no for them, believe me, I’m felt that way and I’m trying always my very super best to prove them that I could also be their pride, honor and glory.

 

And like the main character of Destiny Rose my father also hate gays. As he only perceive man as strong, brave and macho image. But my heart like the young character is also shouting that I’m a woman. I also wanted to act, dress and do girl thing. Its just that now I do not want to crossdress.

 

No matter who we are the show just want equality, that no gender will be left behind. No biases. That our worth as human does not guarantee that if you are a man or a woman makes you superior to the third sex. That you have more right and privileges than us. That you will become bitter if there will time that we are more successful and happy than you in life, business, academics or even in love.

 

The show though may be criticized by upright and righteous people may gives us knowledge and information to better know the LGBT community that in the eyes of our God, we are all his children.

 

Be happy and inspired,

 

tr3se14

 

Take Pride

We not have the best in our life yet when our hearts are full if gratefulness, there and then, we will see how blessed we are. I’m talking about family here. I don’t have that great parents, we’re not rich, they’re not professional nor we have close family ties. This very hour, as I am studying at adoration chapel (of course after I have prayed), I have seen a father and daughter interaction. You may be right also that I did not heard what they have talked about yet I just wanna compare myself with that daughter. How I wish I am also proud of my family despite that we don’t have every material things and money which I believe is one source of happiness. Yeah, I never did introduce my father to even one of my friends or classmates because I feel so ashamed, shy and private(?). I would never allow someone to go to our small and filthy house and too took pity and see how poor we are. I lived a life that is not really my life. A life that is full of pretentions. A life that I have hated. A life that I cannot accept. A life that I was never been proud of. A life that I kept secret and hidden. And how I wish that when I was a kid I am not insecure and jealous of things that I do not have, I might have been proud of my family.

 

Yeah, we not be perfect family but we are happy at times. We may don’t have everything but were still alive. We may not have the latest and expensive gadgets yet we can have the cheapest ones. We not have lot of viands yet we can still eat foods. We don’t have designer dresses yet we can also afford to buy ukay-ukay.

 

Were poor and I’m too tired to be one. I feel so ashamed being poor and living a life with lies. I can’t stand to eat with friends in a fancy restaurant while my family may not have food to buy. I can’t take anymore to watch movies in a cinema while in fact we do not have a television. And I can’t just go to a festivities, tourist spots and happenings while my family can’t afford to travel for a very need destination to go to.

 

How I wish I am that kid who is so innocent. So simple and happy of what I just have. That I was not been a brat. That I would just be happy and contented what they can give to me. That I will be proud to brag even its cheap and old as long as it was from the sweat and blood of efforts of my parents to have what I have.

 

Thus, don’t take yourself in a life that’s not yours abd take pride of what you have. Don’t let that insecurities and greed eat out your heart from being simple, humble and happy.

 

God blesses us! 🙂

Be happy and inspired,

tr3se14

 

A/N: This was first printed on my wattpad account on © September 07, 2015.

 

 

Best

Don’t settle for less because you deserve the best.

The above statement is so plain and simple yet when desperate curcumstances and trials comes, admit it, its so difficult to decide. Yeah, who wouldn’t want to have the best of everything? Well, very few and those are the hypocrites, shallow and/or ambitionless people. Some may view having the best as luxury, power, status, influence, pleasure or life. What really matter? Is how you view it, how can you have it and why you want it. Its all solely depend on you. Believe me, if you will not change the way you view your life, nothing will happen. None.

In life, its not too much if you want the best because that best things, people, job, house and you is what woukd make you happy and fulfilled but just remember your roots. Roots just like trees is the hidden you – your values, emotions and real happiness. Always remember to give back to the one who showered you all those blessings. Always remember the people who were there as you climbed to your success in life. And always remember who was you before the new you. The you why you become who you are today or the you who will become someone, the you who dreamed and dreaming.

On love, well, some of us have our own standards while some just wait for who will come on their life. But how would you be certain that he is the best? Well, first if that person qualifies for your criterias or checklist for your the one. But if you don’t have criterias or checklist, then, I can only say that he might be the one if that peraon can show and make you feel love more than how you love your self. That’s already one best person.

We want best in life or love. Believe on it, work for it and pray for it. Yeah, don’t settle for less because we all deserve the best. God blesses us.

Be happy and inspired,

tr3se14

 

 

 

 

Life

1. Life is beautiful. Life is indeed beautiful, its all about your perspective. Always think positive and how blessed you are.

2. Life is unfair but it is still good. There were times that we’re feeling so down and sad but be thankful that your still breathing.

3. Life is how you make it. Don’t and never compare yourself to others. Just be good and do good, in as much as you can, in every way possible.

4. Life is a game. Just play with it. Follow the rules and end it everyday with a smile and prayer.

5. Life is a risk. Take the chance especially on something that would make you complete and happy.

6. Life is a blessing. Everyday as you wake up be thankful for another day. Another chance to serve, honor and glorify God.

7. Life is loving. Because its as if your not living if you do not know how to love. Love for yourself, others and God.

8. Life is full of surprises. May it be good or bad, enjoy it and make use the best of it. Enjoy and savor every moment.

9. Life is ironic. Sometimes fate offers us the opposite of what we desire yet at the end and in due time we realize that it makes us better.

10. Life is fun. Who wouldn’t? Ups and down gives more fun. Every stage we struggle but we learn.

11. Life is exciting. We all don’t know what will happen the next day yet we’re expecting that it’s how we want it to. We tend to look after on what will happen next.

12. Life is learning. We are all given the free will to do what we want but as we go through life it always gives us something to learn from even if its just like the same from yesterday. Learning is reflecting that we become mature, better, stronger and wiser.

13. Life is YOU. No one can replace you, just live it to learn and love. It may be unfair, ironic, good, or exciting always take the risk, make it fun and get excited to play its surprises and blessings. Because no one except you chose how you make it. Only you and you alone.

Be happy and inspired,

tr3se14

© June 13, 2015 on my wattpad account tr3se13

The Search: The MOST Important

Above all, my one true love MUST be GOD-FEARING.

 

The best place to find One True Love is meeting him on a church. Relationship that founded and centered to God bonds two person stronger to go against all odds in life. Binds us to love each other till eternity, understand each other despite the doubts, respect each other in whatever situation we are into and hold me when I’m about to give up.

 

Someone so sweet on his own little and unique ways. Someone to have and to hold. Someone to listen and understand me when others will left me. Someone to love in a way that no one else will.

 

May that someone will come to me the soonest possible. I know you are waiting for me too. Let’s just wait for our time. I know I will met you at the right time and at the right place. Labyu!

 

Be happy and inspired,

 

tr3se14

 

P.S.: Actually, this was written and published first at wattpad but I unpublished this September 2015 after six months to be published here at blogjob and I already had someone. He may not be that someone that I described as a standard of my fantasy guy yet he is my one and only love. I will fight for our love no matter what as long as I know that our relationship is still worth fighting for. That we still love each other despite of the distance and our limits of contacts. And despite that we cannot be always together, we uphold the care, respect, understnding and faithfulness to each other. I know we are not a typical nor an extraordinary partners, that we might face criticism and unacceptance, yet we want to prove that love knows no gender. Our journey may just be starting but when we sustain being happy and contented it will lead to love now and for our lifetime.

 

 

The Search: Connection

Connection pertains to on how my one true love is connected to me or to others. After all, it’s a small world. So somehow, I have yo be carefuon choosing as well as how I’ll be stating my search for him.

 

As usual, there are three rules. Rules that in as much as I can, I will strictly follow this standard of mine.

Rule 1: He is NOT my FRIEND

I firmly believe that real friendship last forever and isn’t it an awkward that your ex is one among your friends as well though there were some that its just okay for them.

 

I remember one of my friend would jokingly say that why do I keep on searching that someone and getting hurt when she is just there waiting for me? The reason? She is one among my best of friends that I am with during our college flirting days. And she is a girl.

But ironically onto this day, I want to find my special someone and we have to start as friends but not the close one. Because of course undeniably lots of people out there would first approach you to have s*x with them and its just so disgusting.

Rule 2: He is NOT my CO-WORKER

I don’t want neither that my special someone and I were working in the same workplace because whether we like it or not when we are on a quarrel mode, our emotion might hinder our efficiency at work. And its simply unethical that we involved other people much more our workplace in to our personal issues and problems.

I don’t want that public display of affection thing and I want also that our relationship will be private in as much as we can. I don’t want to get jealous when I’ll be seeing him flirting to others when I am just in a background as his co-worker.

Rule 3: He is NOT a COMMITTED PERSON

Of course, its a big NO that I’ll be a third party in someone’s relationship. It’s never been my dream to be a wrecker though I love to take the challenge. I do believe on Karma that it will go back to you what have you done in the past.

I admit its really tempting to see a daddy bod, responsible and loving father but what can I do if he’s already taken though he’s flirting on me? Temptation is really GOOD. As it will lead you to be good and do good. Doing the right thing is still the best choice in life. Thus, I would never get involved knowing that my posssible partner is already committed.

Be happy and inspired,

tr3se14

 

The Search: Character

When we say character it refers to certain qualities of a person the way he thinks, behaves or acts. For me, the character of a person is an important aspect to consider when finding my one true love. Because, psychologically, we should be mutually do love, respect and faithful to each other. These three elements were some among the foundations of a happy, successful and fruitful relationship that destined to last forever.

 

The character that I want my one true love to have which I just have heard in  homily during my college years were very  basic yet so important: my one true love is simple, honest and humble.

Rule 1: He is SIMPLE

Simple. Yeah, he should be simple as he is. A real person. A person who acts and behaves as what a human being with dignity is expected.

Simplicity for me implies that my one true love is someone of being just himself especially when our colleagues looks so classy and talks about flashy things.

He doesn’t care if we don’t have this and that for as long as we are happy together. That what matters most in our relationship is we have each other to hold in hands at night and hug tightly until the next day.

 

Rule 2: He is HUMBLE

A humble person does not think of himself much and does not change despite of his worth and value were going higher still he is grounded to earth. His values and virtues overpower all the success and achievements he has. What matters most to this person is the true few people in his life and relationship built through the years.

This person does not boast and does not see the person based on their looks or status in life because what he sees on every individual are only the good and positive sides. He does not help to promote of himself or to be popular but he helps because its his desire and helping is what makes his life complete and meaningful

 

Rule 3: He is HONEST

As the adage says: Honesty is the best policy. An honest person does not want to cheat on other people. He does not think to be more powerful, richer, influential among others to other people through taking advantage and corruption but prefers to reach all his goals in life with his brawn and blood working

He’s honest enough to tell me what he feels and what he don’t like about me. It does not matter to him if I may get hurt because he knows that he wants me to be better person. His were full of concern and love. A person that would honestly love, respect and understand me no matter how messy I can be.

Be happy and inspired,

 

tr3se14

 

 

The Search: Characteristics 2 of 2

Rule 3: Someone who is WHITER than me

I admit that I’m really mesmerized with people who has flawless skin much more if that person’s color is white. That someone who always appears so clean and unblemished.

That also explains why I’m a fan of Korean heartthrobs though there were also hot guys from various races.

Who really wouldn’t want to have a glowing, shining white skin? Others were even hooked to intake, inject or used various whitening products available in the market. Unluckily, because of such vanity others got complications and even death.

Well anyways, its always better to love yourself and be natural. Accept what we have and be happy with it. As beauty is not merely based on someone’s skin color but the golden heart that he has within.

I remember that I have this discussion with my friend that when were young we all want a perfect, charming and handsome knight in shining armor but as we grew up we realized that life is not like that of fantasy and we have to accept and be happy of our partner despite that the said person is not like that from our fairy tale wishes and dreams.

My true love may not be white then but I’m praying that his heart and love for me is pure and real.

But what really matter in the end is not our love one’s age, height or color but how could that person prove us the meaning of what love is. Love that is not merely based on exchange of sweet and endearing words but of actions and moments of love shared. The time that that person could give on us despite of busy life, the said person could find to spend a time for us because that person value the relationship that we share.

Be happy and inspired,

tr3se14

 

 

The Search: Characteristics 1 of 2

A person characteristics is kinda important to me though some poets out there would argue that love is blind and love does not look on WHAT the person has as long as that person will love you but still in my humblest opinion it does matter not just to show to the world that your partner is so handsome and damn hot BUT i don’t know either why its just that I know that it matters to me wayback in my high school years. Well, my rules were not that hard either – I just want someone who is older, taller and whiter than me – that’s all yet until now its really hard to find for that THE ONE!

Rule 1: Someone who is OLDER than me

I always had wanted that there would be someone of authority to love, understand, respect, guide, and protect me maybe for a fact that I am eldest and I am not that close with my father made me want that my true love must be then older than me.

Somehow unconsciously I made myself believe that when someone is older than me he is more experienced in life lessons and mature. As a grown up and learned, I also believed that he is patient, considerate and sensitive as he already have gone through and get over with my struggle.

 

Unfortunately, as I grew up I realized that this belief is not as I perceived it to be. Not all grown up and older than me were really acting their age. As the adage says: Age doesn’t matter. But in this perspective it would mean that maturity doesn’t come with someone’s age as others were just growing old but not growing up.

Thus, this rule should be: I envision my one true love as a MATURE individual.

Rule 2: Someone who is TALLER than me

I just don’t know clearly why would I want someone who’s taller than me as a requisite of finding my one true love. Maybe because I badly need a protector since I am a pathetic victim of bullying everywhere I go. My mind believes that tall people has authority like that of power and influence to our leaders in various walks of life.

 

On the other hand, for me height matters as he is capable to cradle me and I would find that so sweet. He would looks hot and appealing in my eyes too.

But does height really matters or the purity of someone’s heart? The lenght of his patience to understand my childish behavior, how he would widen his understanding despite how messy I could be and stretch his respect for who I am.

Of course without any hesitation we should choose someone of great heart and behavior than that of someone’s physical attributes. But then, its better to have what you want who has a golden heart as well.

Be happy and inspired,

tr3se14

 

 

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