All of us have memories. They could be forgettable or not. There are memories that continue to remind us. How I wish my memories won’t last. As long as the month of May exists, my memories continue to exist. I am reminded of these memories the other day when I dined in a fast food center alone. I want to cool myself yesterday for it was so hot in our place. When I entered that establishment, I suddenly stopped for a moment. Do you want to know why? I heard a song I cannot forget. The song is entitled “First of May. “ I cannot recall the singer for I was fifteen years old that time this song was heard. I supposed not to enter to dine for my heart seemed prick with a very sharp needle. After few minutes my hunger keeps on telling me to move to order my food. I approved myself to enter order and dine with my favorite sea foods.
Yes, the past is still so fresh. It was May at age 17 when I had a summer vacation in Camp 12, Philips Bukidnon. There someone had a crush on me. Someone told me that his friend saw me walking in the pineapple plantation alone one afternoon. I recalled that instance, but cannot remember of a human watching me. I do not know where he hides that time. All I know, I want to see the vast plantation with pineapples ready to bear fruits. The man told me Renz Lopez was the name of the guy. From the way he described him, made me restless. I spent sleepless nights thinking about Renz, the tall, flawless, chinito and handsome young guy at 19. He studied in the University of Manila taking up Bachelor of Laws.
The next day, I was told by the man that I can meet Renz early morning the next day. He will sit in the vermuda grasses fronting our window. I was so tensed, but I assured him, I won’t frustrate Renz. Early morning came and saw him sitting on the grasses sweetly smiling at me. He signaled me to come down to talk, which I didn’t refuse. And while coming nearer him, a song First of May was played, so memorable. He was so cute, nice, smiling, handsome and lovable. He visited me every morning and to make the story short, we became lovers. But time has come that I have to go home to enroll in first semester, and he, to go back to Cebu. We bade goodbyes and promised to get in touched through letters.
I enrolled my course Bachelor of Science in Physics minor in Algebra. Since this course needs attention, so I seldom replied Renz messages. He felt bad about that, so I made a decision to end our relationship. I want to concentrate on my studies and see myself graduate. He was so hurt, but accepted my decision. He is now a lawyer and married to a nurse. Do I have regrets?
I went home after I dined with a heavy heart. I am still single and if we are that strong, we might mean by each other. My feeling sucks every May and every time I hear the song “First of May.”
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