HER: Does he love me is mixed emotions what he sending?
ME: My options are few my life of crime seems to never be ending, if so how will my family be eating?
HER: should I flirt with other men to open his eyes how do I prove I’m a bad bitch can’t fuck with me unless he rich.
ME: Street karma is real ,I’m so dirty I have lived a grimy life,will it catch up soon and put me in a ditch,or will I end up back in prison all behind a snitch?
HER: I got side niggas just in case I’m out clubbing every weekend make him jealous keep him in his place.
ME: I pretended with a lot of tricks just to get in they safe, but never been too good at fake, so it turned into robbery Point Blank – oh God I need your grace my sins erased.
HER: Oh fuck a nigga miss Independent I can find a new one no hesitation at all but I’ll still let him hit any time he call.
ME: I’ll only love 1.. right wrong or indifferent through it all no choice we’ve got to stand tall and if we do happen to crumble I’ll lay myself before God humble and ask for his love cuz once again I’ll stumble.
Just sitting here reflecting nevermind my pretty face but the reality about to step in anything involving a come up I was never rejectin
I used to wake up worried about our meal at the end of the day if one time gonna hit the spot or if haters wanna get wit the gunplay
I never been afraid and I can’t be too shy cuz the same color we all bleed and I done witnessed n***** die mfs lose they life over a word $5 or because they wanted to get high but who am i?
Never judge because dope fiends and crackhead has always kept me above
& when times got a little too rough i went against the grain said f*** The Dope Game
running up in houses got victims and they point the finger to me I’ll take the blame even had a man riding with me snitched but he aint no man
he ah real-life bitch all bad when you get a strike attached to your name you come home everything in the street is still the same
same options it’s too late to clean up now at least that’s how I feel so im back at it-
pussy.. crack.. licks & set ups anything i can deal
so im at war with the streets with the law with my religion with my God who i still bow my head down to every night and wake up in the morning praise him for everything that I have in sight pray for forgiveness all throughout the day I won’t let my kids go hungry must provide a stable place for them to stay anything below that never an option no way
like I said I’m just sitting here reflecting how to put things into perception
to fortify my Temple learn from everyday life’s fuckin lesson.
I believe I know he’ll step in father God please don’t let my dirt block my blessins.
*Love, love me freely*
January 27 2009
Love would you please love me freely I don’t want to beg and compromise – love I want to see the sunrise in your eyes – I’m tired of trying to make it work and make it sufficient for you. I have feelings needs and wants to love can you stop being so difficult and holding back from me – love me freely, love me deep.
Organic natural love freely without force – love me at my best love me at my worst – love you’re always out of reach. What to me are you trying to teach – that love has to come freely and preach – can I get a amen – I know I understand but I’m just saying – I’m not trying to be bossy or something like a bully – but, love I need you to love me freely, love me fully – my heart is weighing heavy like a ton – Love.. You r Beautiful also stingy I want some – you always meet me a quarter way that’s how to run and run – love it feels like we’re playing hide and seek – when I catch you I’ll rub your back and kiss you on the cheek – are you afraid of me is it cuz I always want you near – I won’t lie I have loved another his name is hate – I came to all my senses, from his grip I escaped – and to you I went, but you won’t love me freely, do you even give a damn – that if you don’t embrace me sadness will consume me and to hate I have to go back – you won’t love me freely I guess I’ll go pack – wait what is that you say? In order for you to love me freely I have to let nature take its course – oh but of course silly me – hatred clouding my vision I couldn’t quite see – then when love is ready to love he’ll come when the time is right – no longer will I have to fight – and make demands… love is that wrong just one more thing love please don’t let me wait too long – Cherise Boatwright aka reesetruth
You’re vision of me hurts me deep-expressing All I feel..mistaken for crazy_ with one soul I dare to unleash thoughts feelings hidden desires.and fears spoken raw…just imagine him my paper filled with my pretty and ugly truth not a flaw.his lines once so fresh and bold underlying his lovers story to feel not to b told..as the ink gets heavier And starts to fade I replenish words still more to say…his lines begin to grow dull ..weak and diminishing page by page …reality hits as it turns light grey scared if I blink it’ll be gone Al the way. Now my highest of highs lowest of lows I confidently placed in his care…he speaks them against me..my biggest fear. The only one I let see and feel comfortable to be my real…my truth…my right…my wrong my every emotion my every thought…he faded.on he went….IM stranded ..ground beneath now invisible..but I remain straight..upright..unchanged …my him..my all throwing it all in my face…hurts..kills..destroys my illusion of we..but my words cantt b erased..it’s in my writing my voice and face..in his eyes a disgrace 🙁
You’re vision of me hurts me deep-expressing All I feel..mistaken for crazy_ with one soul I dare to unleash thoughts feelings hidden desires.and fears spoken raw…just imagine him my paper filled with my pretty and ugly truth not a flaw.his lines once so fresh and bold underlying his lovers story to feel not to b told..as the ink gets heavier And starts to fade I replenish words still more to say…his lines begin to grow dull ..weak and diminishing page by page …reality hits as it turns light grey scared if I blink it’ll be gone Al the way. Now my highest of highs lowest of lows I confidently placed in his care…he speaks them against me..my biggest fear. The only one I let see and feel comfortable to be my real…my truth…my right…my wrong my every emotion my every thought…he faded.on he went….IM stranded ..ground beneath now invisible..but I remain straight..upright..unchanged …my him..my all throwing it all in my face…hurts..kills..destroys my illusion of we..but my words can’t b erased..it’s in my writing my voice and face..in his eyes a disgrace 🙁 Continue reading Your vision
don’t you know you define beautiful way past the flesh deep into your soul.. the trouble in your eyes inspire me to reach out and touch ..wishing your pain wasent so much. when you speak I’m captivated in awe of the deepthness you hold impressed by your knowledge …the way u represent yourself ..is the meaning of beautiful strong and smart..make me wanna sharpen up maybe one day I’ll represent you..id proudly let u..be my rock..my man ..my protecter..my lover..my strength..my all I’ll ever need or want. unlike no other..I desire you..I want you. I want your good I want your bad..I want you happy and Never sad..can we touch some more and naturally find out ..if you and I ..is what love is about?
Hey you know lonely is who lonely is? I’m pretty sure you’ve heard all the bad things said about him.. All the pain he caused how he’s no good pause like a terrifying ride no brakes, no pause. Nobody chooses him he chooses them them and fills you with venmon before a web he spins . I know they told you not one good thing of him, but um here to speak on who I call a very old friend.he’s the only one who stuck with me right wrong thick and thin maybe I’m crazy or I just don’t conform to this world but lonely used to be,to me, my only source of peace never could go a day without his silent company he never interfered or got jealous of my time with my thoughts never judged my tears that I fought in front of others all day always waited patiently while I moaned groaned knelt down and prayed. But then I met you..my.beauty in the dark, you made lonely feel so wrong …like I wasted all my time on him…like he was my enemy no longer my best friend.. you are an eye opener…a fresh breath..can I be ..can we be..
He once sat me down and he began to confess of the life of the lies and the games and the tests for the previous years that I catered to him he Done unspeakable things and up until now he held them within ..the words that he spoke made me feel like I was a joke like I was nothing and very little and below.. the words that he spoke had my throat in a choke.. The words that he spoke inside me murder provoked but i SAT and I listened I didn’t shed a tear and when he was finished I hugged him and held him near and told him just like this I love you regardless and that will never change by your side I want to remain as long as you promise that not very far is change it doesn’t really matter the thing that you Done because you confessed and manned up you’re a real one ..im your reflection staring back through my eyes ..it is proven that I’m going to ride and stay solid inside #reesespitstruth