Hello everyone! It has been a long time I haven’t stepped on this blogsite. I have an independent blogsite but now I am no longer active on that. I miss Blogjob and made a little visit today. I remember I had a certain blogsite that is all about inspiration and here it is. I am looking for some inspiration so I read few of my entries.
I am thinking when I got my inspiration to wrote those blogs before but maybe my inspiration is that before, I was paid from doing it. Right now, the site is no longer paying, but the owner make our blogs still visible. We can monetize it if we want, so let me continue this journey.
There were lots of stories I want to share, yet, I am thinking if I will share it all. Right now, I need some motivation so I searched some quotes and watched inspirational videos at YouTube. I learned something and that is Motivation is nothing without Discipline.
Right now, I didn’t went for work. It’s been two days now because of sore throat and flu. I am at home and when I am staying at home, mostly I work online and then I became tardy. Tomorrow, I need to get back on my feet. I need to take charge of what I am feeling because mostly in the morning, it will be toxic already with all the question and answer. Even if they know you were not there yesterday, they will still need to know the answer coming from you. They expect you to perform as they do or else they will give you a failing grade. I know what they think about me, that is why I don’t have the motivation to excel. That is wrong anyway. I need to change the attitude and perform even if the people around me believe that I look like a dumb.
I need to apply what I learned about Discipline. I need to create a New Day for me, to start that new habit. For now, even if the job is toxic and I am always unhappy, I need to perform and get the job done. I think I don’t need to excel. I have some other plans. I just don’t want to be a burden there and still wants to be part of the solution. Let us see.
The only problem is that, I am not looking forward. No matter I have the courage, I still have something inside me that is making me unhappy. It is making me demotivated. I know everything will fall into place in the right time, it is just that my emotion is not correlating to what I want to happen. Or maybe I don’t know what I want to happen, lol.
So what is the title is all about. The New Me, Embracing Change and it has a question mark? Yes, it has a question mark because I don’t know exactly what I want. The first thing I learned today is Discipline. Then the second thing is I want to go to work 15 minutes earlier. I want to smile and when the person who stresses me out appears, I will just ignore the feeling and focus of what she wants me to do. I will do it for a week and let us see if I can stay there. I will change my attitude first, hoping some change will happen and then the title on my next post will be Embracing Change because I Changed. lol
I hate promises now. I don’t accept promises either. Promises are like blowing in the wind for me. I will execute those three I mentioned and see the changes, hoping it will help me.
Slowly but surely. Slowly but surely because I don’t know what I want to happen now…