Anxiety Attack

Has anyone ever had an anxiety attack?

I think I may have had one last night. (I’ve never had one before, so I’m not sure what it feels like.)

I was laying in bed, both my kids were asleep, and I was scrolling through my Netflix. I came across a movie called Mona Lisa Smile that had Julia Roberts and a bunch of other really popular actresses that I like, so I though, “Why not?”

I hit play and started watching.

Then, about twenty minutes into it, I got this awful feeling. My stomach tensed up into knots, and I could feel my heart racing. And there was just this sense… this, “Oh man. Something bad is going to happen.” I even texted my brother to make sure he was okay, then I set the alarm on the house and made sure all the doors were locked.

It was almost maddening how anxious I became. I was literally lying in bed, watching a simple movie, and even yawning from how tired I was. But, I just couldn’t go to sleep. My racing heart and knotted stomach refused to let me relax enough to fall asleep. And I had no idea why I was so panicked.

I must have stayed in my bed like that for over an hour.

Finally, the movie was over, so I switched to some reruns of Friends. I’ve seen that show so many times I can practically recite it, but I still watch it all the time.

Then, around midnight, I was finally able to fall asleep. I didn’t feel any less calm. I think I was just so exhausted from the previous night of not sleeping and the long day of working and taking care of the kids.

I woke up this morning not really remembering anything until I was halfway through teaching a class. Something in our chat reminded me of the movie, which reminded me of the panicked feeling. Now, I feel unsettled again. Not quite as bad as last not, but still not normal.

Man… I’m just a wreck today.

  1 comment for “Anxiety Attack

  1. February 9, 2016 at 12:28 pm

    I’m not sure what that was but it doesn’t sound good. Perhaps you should let your doctor know what occurred and he or she probably could get to the bottom of it. I hope you feel better.

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