As a mom, I feel like I give a lot of myself to my daughter. And, as an army wife, I give up a lot of choices. I gave up my career to stay at home, I didn’t get to pick my college because I moved where the army sent us, and I live far from my family so that my husband can do what he loves. I give up a lot of myself. Heck, I don’t even get to control the tv on a regular basis. So I feel like I’ve earned the right to be a little selfish about some things.
So what am I selfish about? I am selfish about my work. I believe that, during my day, I should be allowed a certain amount of time to work on something that’s important to me. I know that it may take away from my household duties. I mean, sometimes I will skip a chore, or I will let my daughter watch a little TV so that I can work. It doesn’t hurt anyone, and it’s not the end of the world if the living room doesn’t get vacuumed every single day. Right?
My writing time is a time to focus on myself. I am able to earn a little extra money for the house, and it makes me feel like I’ve accomplished something. I don’t feel like I’m completely wasting my time. I am still focused on goals, which makes my days a little better. Before my writing, I had such a feeling of depression because I felt aimless. I knew I was caring for my child, but I wasn’t doing anything for myself.
I really enjoy my writing career. It has made being a stay-at-home mom so much more satisfying, and it definitely helps with the bills for our home.
So I may be being a little selfish. But that’s okay by me. I give up enough of myself, and I deserve this little piece.