Good evening world. In my neck of the woods, there is an hour left of the first day of the year 2016. This is as good a time as any to share with you some of my hopes, dreams, and ambitions for this new year.
I will be 34 this year and if any version of me that existed prior to ten years ago saw me, he would be disappointed to say the least. I am happy that I am doing better with my walk with God and understand that these things take time to fall into place. Patience is a virtue I usually have in abundance, yet looking at things with 24 year old eyes or 14 year old eyes is a difficult perspective to appreciate.
I endure because I have a renewed sense of purpose. I endure because I am walking with a better sense of commitment and conviction. There are so many ways to convey my ideas and my vision that I no longer can lean against old excuses. Intellectually I understand why certain ideas make millions of dollars but emotionally, I find it difficult to quantify why this and not mine? I don’t want to come across as a whiner or complainer and rarely has my pillow been soaked in tears, but it does give me pause and compels me to question what I am doing wrong and how I can sell myself better.
I am not some fount of indispensable wisdom or untapped originality. I fully accept the derivative nature of some of my ideas because I am inspired by so much and the cross over in styles and genre are immense and I want to pay homage to those scenes, emotions, snarky one-liners and everything else that has ever made me smile, tear up, or want to tear what little hair I have out of my scalp.
Never give up, right? Walk with purpose, talk with conviction, and love with all my heart. I think I’ll be okay.
Check in with me tomorrow for a new feature called “Half Baked-Ideas for Full Stomachs.” I believe the hallmark of being a geek, mark, or nerd is the drive to create or look at things in a unique way. So, pun intended, prepare for a taste of that tomorrow. Good night, and God bless.