I, Miss Fatty Fat Fat Fat, will reward myself for writing this post with a refill of Pepsi from Panera’s soda dispenser. I may even reward myself with a third refill of soda after that. Or maybe I’ll skip the soda (sort of) and head over to the Wendy’s next door for two cheese sandwiches and a Coke. Or maybe I’ll do a mix of both. I may not be a dog, but I am hungry/thirsty and I am well worth a treat once in a while!
Allow me to get serious now. I have a complicated relationship with my body and food. As you may have picked up, I am currently overweight and it has a direct connection with my diet. From day to day I have no idea how I’m going to feel about those extra pounds. Sometimes I will laugh it off and go through the day as bubbly as ever. Other times I will be self-loathing and “know” that I’m a disgusting blob. As of writing this post, I am in a good mood and am only “Miss Fatty Fat Fat Fat” for humor (self-deprecating, but still). Today I am going to enjoy my favorite foods and not worry how Mr. Scale would view me. Sometimes I’m not this confident and would do anything to lose 50 pounds (or whatever it would take to reach a sizling 120 pounds).
Some women have this warped idea that the only way to lose weight is to give up any food that tastes good (because apparently one meal will make you fat or some nonsense like that) including treat food. So ladies, forget a cool glass of soda with your meal. Skip the popcorn at the movies because it’s fat on top of fat. God forbid you buy a chocolate bar at the grocery store for after dinner. If you want to lose weight, you will never have a reward ever again. You don’t want to gain a single pound because you will be a big old failure! Emphasis on “big”.
It is ridiculous, it really is. I know because there was a brief time I tried to limit the treats I ate. No evening snacks, no movie snacks, nothing that was too sugary (for fear that it could be addicting and lead to overeating). I also cut what I ate for dinner in half because it worked for celebrity women so why not me? I hated it. When I gave up on it, I overate much worse than before because of feeling deprived.
At the moment I’m once again struggling with my weight and my diet and I admit to sometimes considering another round of strict “No treats!” Ha, who am I kidding? I love treat foods. The next time you see me, I’ll be drinking a Coke and eating a cheese sandwich from Wendy’s.