How Did I Get Over It?

I woke and dragged myself up out of the bed this morning at seven am, after only sleeping five hours, when the alarm beeped.

I called Publix and asked ” did anyone turn in car keys?” The person looked and said no.

Next call was to my friend that pulls in our broken down cars, I call him friend now because he has pulled us in so many times over the years. He told me he was on his way to pick the car up.

He called me to tell me it was at Dodge service department.

I then called the dealership for the bad news, how much and how long will it take. The guy said ” $140″ I like to have fainted! For one key. I asked what time and he told me in two hours.

When I pulled in the dealership lot I seen my car in a parking space and knew it was ready, I went inside and paid and I asked why it was so much and the lady said ” yours is cheap some have been $400!”

As I was walking out of the dealership the phone rang, “Hello” I said when I answered the unknown number ” Hey Andria, this is Beth.” See I dont know a Beth, I said ” Yes maam” and she said “I have good news, we found your keys! they were in a shopping cart.” I thanked her and told her I would be down as soon as I could. Know what is weird about this situation? One of the employees pulled out every shopping cart last night with me looking for those keys and they were not there! I think someone took my keys off the top of my purse, felt guilt ( I had prayed) and brought them in this morning.

SO I just bought a $140 key and they just found my keys.

I drove over to Uncle Cuz house and dropped off the truck he allowed us to borrow, chatted a little.

But still how did I get over hitting rock bottom? Helpless when I had no car, carless means no way to go and now moneyless means go no where and buy nothing.

I came home and had a sandwich, watched some robot show and then I said ” I going to bed and I will set the clock to get up later,” Tony said ” go ahead and wake me when you get up.” I took a two and a half hour nap and got back up at six thirty pm.

When I got up I went straight outside and mowed some grass, at my house, all for me. Tony brought out the dogs and I walked them around a couple times and then tied Harley to the tree and he was happy to watch me, Roscoe laid in the tall grass and watched me.

And I had watermelon for dinner!

How was your day?

By Andria Perry
Photo By Andria Perry

That Life Is Canceled

” Life is like a box of chocolates, Smash each piece so you don`t` get that nasty creme flavor!”

Yes I do 🙂 and people hate me for doing that, but you ever eat a piece of chocolate and it has nuts and it yummy, then you bite into that nasty creme flavored one and it just ruined the first piece chocolate indulgence? I say “Smash`em.”

I can imagine that everyone is as sick of hearing about sickness as I am. I try to live positive and not focus on every ache and pain. I know if I work all day I am gonna hurt thats normal life and that is what I am going back to, today is the beginning of going back.

Now for the NOT sick article.

I am not totally against doctors, I know God put them on earth to help us, its the doctors that only look at the money and not caring about the person that I have no use for, Sad to say, most are no longer caring, give a pill and get rid of you and holler “Next!”

Tony had his six month check up yesterday with the heart doctor, he has stents and they did save his life. Seeing that he still has part of that cold/flu mess the doctor wants a stress test but he will put it off till summer. Since I am his caretaker I am also asked questions by the doctor and I like that because I can tell him what is or not happening, the doctor asks my overall opinion and I give it. Good doctoring, this surgery was done two years ago and he has had no complications.

I was supposed to have a stress test but I put it off for another week, it was today, I don`t feel sick and I have never had any heart problems but to flatter the doctor I agreed to one last test, after all he said ” you`re not sick!”. I just need to chill at home today and not worry with all this doctor mess. No matter how cold it is outside, I will get back to walking today, my dogs have missed me and the walks. I have missed my “me” time with God while I walk.

I am getting better since that horrible shot in my spine, that was one of those live and learn experiences, that one I will not try twice, Although my controlled diabetes is still out of control and extremely high from that shot, I will not focus on that and move on, diabetes is something that each person has to control, with exercise and diet.

Maybe I should do a check in with the new year resolutions, Get me back to what I want in life. What do you think? I am headed in the right direction in my own opinion.

By Andria Perry
Photo By Andria Perry

Conversations – People and People in my Head

I`m the shy one of the bunch, but not as shy as the one standing behind momma peeking around her leg.

Its seems as life continued I was told ” Go in and ask ___ __.” with a little shove as I protested that I did not want to. Talking to people was not my thing.

Then I grew up and was pushed even more by people who did not know that it was terrifying for me to walk up and just talk to people, I kept it hid well so not to be the freak of the world. But I learned fast that I had to ask the people what they wanted to order with a smile and kindness if I was to get a quarter or a dollar as they left after their meal.

The words ” That is not very becoming” stuck in the back of my brain as my old sister criticized me for my appearance in my tween year. A few years later my old brother words still echo in the back of my head ” Stop talking stupid, you`ll never buy that.” Huh?

Now its always talking to strangers , no matter where I am, everyone is a stranger. Make friends with the strangers people say, I did. Some betray me and others keep secrets for me.

People who claim to know me say” you do not have a shy bone in your body.” Others say ” what a smart ass.”

Another said ” She is an oak and can weather the storms.” While smiling faces wanting to reap the benefits of my labor say ” You can do it, I know you can.”

Critics tell me how to ___ ___, I have to reply with a ” When I am rich and famous I will hire people to fix it, I call them editors.” “Mouthy little bitch” they answer back.

Life is weird.

Some people act as they like you and what you do , I reckon to keep the peace. Others are invisible, see right through the bullshit and you feel the sharpness of their tongues in just a few written sentences.

But I am an Oak! Right?

The shy girl is sensitive but hides it well, no one will see her tears.

Just quit, walk away says that little voice within.

The stubborn voice pops up and says ” Hell, no! Don`t let Miss sharp tongue run you off, just ignore her! For she is no better than you.”

Stay or walk away? Be part of the team and endure? Figure out what the problem is? Jealous maybe? Decisions, decisions!

By Andria Perry
Art by Andria Perry called “Censored”