I haven’t blogged for a good two months, and that’s being generous. I am always active with my BlogJob status updates, especially where pop culture or news is concerned. I’ve also been ranting and raving about different college experiences this semester, which I should probably apologize for since it’s only probably interesting to me. That doesn’t mean I’m going to stop doing it; sometimes when I have a lot on my plate, I need to get it out there to maybe maintain my sanity.
Of course, I was going to explain why I haven’t been blogging recently. I don’t know the exact reason. I mean, I often think “I should put this in a blog!” and in my mind I create a good skeleton for what the blog would look like. I was even going to create a new blog, something along the lines of My Hate Mail in which I post and comment on all of the fun things people have said to me or about me on Facebook. I’ve been getting a lot of death threats and “You need god!” in recent weeks, so that would be a lot to write about. To return to the idea of posting status updates on my college work, I could in fact turn some of those mini posts into a full-blown blog on Lovely, Lovely English (personal reflections on college English work and other writings as well as posts considering writing-related career musings) or The Language, Literature, and Literacy blog (a more serious news blog about language, literature, and literacy events). There are many opportunities when I think I should blog, but I never get around to it.
I consider my BlogJob work serious, even when the posts I create are more of a way for me to unjumble my thoughts. I’ve never believed that being a serious freelance writer means “Be serious or quit!” We all need to blow off steam or write about things that are just fun. I haven’t been gone because of fear that my posts aren’t good enough or relevant enough or a waste of space. Regardless of what people on Facebook say about me, I think I have a legitimate voice. If it’s not fear holding me back, I wonder what it is.
I want to say that the atmosphere on BlogJob has changed with the flood of new users and I feel lost in so many new names and faces, but that would be completely unfair because I think a good majority of us contribute something special to the blogosphere and it’s in fact a way that I can get more interested followers. Beyond all that, it’s kind of a fun challenge, trying to carve out a niche and maintain a strong voice. That isn’t exactly what’s holding me back either.
Right now I hate to admit it, but maybe it’s simply that my college work (which will be a long process since I’ve decided/out of necessity that I will be going first for a Masters in English and then a Ph. D. in composition and rhetoric) must take precedence over blogging. Maybe these status updates are my best way of keeping in touch with BlogJob plus anyone else who randomly stumbles across me while I have to focus on school.