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It feels like I’ve been gone for weeks! It has only been six days though, but the time has passed so incredibly fast and it’s scary how you can lose track of time when you’re busy all the time. I’ve mostly been busy working, but I’ve also written the first chapter of my new novel. It’s exciting and even though it isn’t very good, it’s still something. It feels like I’m back in the game and that feeling is overpowering me at the time, I haven’t felt this content with everything in a very long time. I’m not sure what made the words form in my mind yet again, but I think it has something to do that everything has been changing way too fast and I’m clinging on to things from my past that I’m not ready to let go of. I was confronted with those things a week ago and that left me thinking – a lot. Me and my boyfriend have been separated for almost a week now (we haven’t broken up, that’s not what I meant) and things are very complicated, but still it’s quite good. I love how things are right now, but I miss him. We talk every day, we do, but we don’t meet up and hang out. We both needed a break from each other and we both have different things to take care of in our life. I understand if this is what makes us break up, the sweet feeling of not being dependant on anyone, and if we were really meant to be together, then we would have been together. I wouldn’t feel sad if we broke up either, things happen and people move on. Don’t get me wrong, everything has been going amazing for us lately, it’s just that we both needed the space. We’re not seeing other people, we just don’t hang out. I’m really not sure how it came to this, but if we’re meant to be, we’ll find a way back to each other.



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